Responding

Day #78 - Monday, April 11, 2022

Responding

The following is my response to the “Wild & Crazy” prompt from the Guided Autobiography group I’ve been participating in for over a year now.   We started meeting once a week, then every two weeks, and now we meet only once a month. The interesting thing about this group is that I’m the only person under 70+ years old.  It’s pretty cool to be around mature women who are wise, vibrant, and fully immersed in their own self-development.   

Today, Monday April 11, 2022 I started having conversations with others about a “wild & crazy” demonstration project that’s been hounding me for a while now…  The project is basically building a business from scratch using BG5 principles (that’s the business application of Human Design), documenting the process, and allowing other entrepreneurs who are curious, interested, or just nosy access to the data we gather.

To be clear, I’ve been struggling to trust the vision that I first “saw” last November.  And it’s a vision that keeps recurring.  It shows itself in different ways, at different times, and it feels “wild & crazy” to my mind every single time. 

Despite this, I’ve started reaching out to people I’m feeling called to work on the first phase of this “open source” BG5 demonstration project of bringing to material reality an information product business. 

This first phase will be based on death, dying, and its aftermath.  During my first call with a BG5 consultant today, we acknowledged there is a lot of fear surrounding death, and dying. However, once we acknowledge that death is part of life, an inevitable experience we will all undergo no matter who we are, then we can liberate our energy to do the work we are here to do in life. 

Once we’ve acknowledged to ourselves that we are definitely going to die, we can allow ourselves to take the necessary measures to prepare for our death with calm, dignity, and grace.  

If we can be clear with ourselves about our inevitable death, then we can be clear  about our wishes, and what we would like to happen to our body, our pets, and our material possessions. 

We can make sure our wishes are known to those who might survive us.  We can calmly organize our affairs to make it easier for our survivors to deal with the material and practical aspects that must be handled after we die in a timely fashion.  This can allow our survivors the space to connect to our loss, engage with their feelings, and process the different phases of grief that will undoubtedly arrive.  

Since we all know we’re going to die, why not make it easier for those we care about? 

This project feels “Wild & Crazy” because I’m starting to engage with a larger circle of people in my life in a very different way, honoring my Reflector Strategy & Authority, while approaching them in the same way, honoring their own uniqueness, their own Strategy & Authority.   

My mind keeps telling me this is the “wildest & craziest” thing I’ve ever done in my life, despite the fact that there are quite a few interesting experiences I’ve had in the past that others might qualify as such. 

Nevertheless, I’ve never felt calmer when starting an experiment.   Only time will tell whether this works or not.  Every failure will be a lesson to be taken into consideration.  

I currently have access to limited seed funding, time and energy to get this started.  However the runway ahead isn’t infinite.  There are material realities that must be acknowledged.  Others I’ll be working with have to be paid for their contributions regardless of whether this makes any money or not in the future.  It’s the everpresent entrepreneurial gamble. And there’s never any assurance that things will work out.  Ask me how I know ; ) 

And yet, what else is there if you can’t allow yourself to follow your gut, your heart, your intuition, your vision, your passion, your joy or any other way of knowing you might be connected to?